I am lost

I gaze around, everything feels unfamiliar. I am lost. This world that i've known for twenty years feels foreign, distant. Where am I? Who am I? What am I? I feel like a stranger in my own skin. In the blink of an eye, i've lost touch with who i've become. My feet are nailed to the floor beneath me, but the world doesn't stop. Everyone seems to be drifting past me, fast forward. I can't keep up. I am lost. Where did all my friends go, the people who said they'd always be there? Where did all my dreams, and my goals go? I look around me and I see hatred, envy, broken hearts, and people hurting one another. I try to shut my eyes to all of it, but cannot manage to escape reality. It's all around me. Enclosing in on me. For a second, I feel suffocated, as if I can't breathe. I don't belong here. I am lost. I catch myself doing things I vowed to never do. I catch myself making the same mistakes. My goals seems to be becoming more distant with every heartbeat of mine. I try to grasp onto them, but they slip past my fingers. I am lost. 

Lips

His lips reminded me of tulips, soft and delicate. They were the most beautiful set of lips i'd ever laid my eyes on for he posessed them. I craved his lips, the softness, the way they gently brushed against my skin like a paintbrush, my body a canvas. A canvas waiting for him to paint. A canvas that had his name written all over it as his and only his. A canvas who craved his candy lips. His smile. His presence. His warm breath lingered on my neck long after he leaves. And the scent of his skin dances in my nostrils during the long, dreary nights in which he is absent. My heart and my soul yearn for him. My hands wish to caress him, to love him. To love his lips, his soft lips for which I shall await an eternity for.

Love

I love you so dearly. I love you so truly. Every breath of mine is taken for you. You're my days and my nights. The thought of you dances in my head all day. The taste of your skin present in my lips. I crave your touch, I feel it when I close my eyes. Your presence is everywhere, from the clouds to the trees. The sound of your voice rings in my ears like a sweet, never ending melody. Your laughter echoes in my heart during my lonely nights. You are everything. You are the sun and you are the moon. You are lightness and you are darkness. I love you. I love every inch of you. I love you to the core- deep down to your bones. I gave you my all, but you neglected me. I let you in on my deepest, darkest secrets, but you walked away, leaving me stranded and lost. You crushed my soul and drained the life out of me- I am nothing but a walking corpse without you. You tore my heart up, yet I still yearn you. I cry out for you every night. My whole being cries out for you. I am lost without you. I want you. I need you. I love you.

5 ways toward a happy and healthy lifestyle

Summer is right around the corner which leaves the majority of us thinking about long nights, bonfires,tanning, laying on the beach, and of course, achieving that perfect summer body! Summer calls for happiness and spending time with family and friends. Here are five ways to maintain healthy and happy while achieving that perfect body! 

1. Drink plenty of water

I know this is over said, but I cannot stress this enough! Eighty percent of the human body is made up of water, it's what keeps your blood flowing and your organs healthy. Water keeps you hydrated and leaves your skin glowing! Drink a glass of water before every meal, for it will keep you full, preventing you from over eating. Water is CRUCIAL!

2. BE HAPPY 

Happiness is a choice and plays a big role in the way your day-or even life- unfolds. Surround yourself with positive people! Wake up every morning and tell yourself that it's going to be a good day, then, use your energy to achieve something great! Spread happiness as well! There is no better remedy than happiness and laughter. 

3. AVOID SUGAR and junk food

Sugar is addicting!!! It's like a drug. The more you stuff your body with sugars and salts, the more you crave it. Junk food is bad for your body and is what's known as "empty calories," meaning you're gaining extra calories from foods with very little to no nutritious benefits. Every time you eat, ask yourself "how is this going to benefit my body?" Eating healthy will increase your happiness and make you feel better overall, with some cheat days here and there.

4. Meal prep 

Many people complain that eating healthy is a hassle and very time consuming. Sure, it is, but it's beneficial and worth it! If you just don't have the time, MEAL PREP! Take one day of the week to do so. For example, use sunday's to meal prep. Bake chicken, fish, and steam some veggies! Next, store them in the refrigerator for the week! This way, you'll have no excuses. If you can't meal prep, there are always alternative choices such as a quick turkey sandwhich or a salad. 

5. Exercise!

Eighty percent of abs are made in the kitchen, and the other ten is based on exercise. Exercise is crucial to your overall health, and help major organs such as your heart! Exercising up to three days a week will do the trick and keep you healthy for life! 

Good luck and have an amazing, healthy journey! 

Pimple pain!

We all suffer from acne at one point in our lives, whether it be before a big wedding or just another day at work! Many individuals suffer from acne during the time of their adolescence and believe, or at least hope that the pink little monsters disappear by the time they're adults. Unfortunately, most adults suffer from acne as well! I'm pretty sure we've all had those days where our skin looks amazing and then when it's time to attend a party or big event,one of the pink little suckers appear out of no where, what a wonderful surprise. I have personally suffered a whole lot from acne but have found ways to prevent it! I will share my daily routine that really cleared my skin up in hopes that it'll work for you as well!

1. Cetaphil oil control foam cleanser 

My pimples often left me feeling insecure and sometimes even worthless. I had days where i'd be embarrassed to face people and cry because I thought it looked so horrible, silly me. When it comes to facial cleanser, i've literally tried it all: neutrogena, clean and clear, St.Ives, Proactive, Clinique, even some of the pricey cleansers that cost almost one hundred dollars! These products did nothing but leave my skin dry and the acne still visible. I had almost given up but decided to take a trip to my dermatologist and bam, he recommended the cetaphil foam cleanser. My skin has never looked or felt healthier before! This product will leave your skin nice and soft while eliminating acne! 

2. Coconut oil

One time, I came across this woman who looked like she was in her twenties, boy, was I wrong! It turned out she was in her fifties. I asked her what her secret was and she said she's been slapping coconut oil on her face every night before she went to sleep, who would've known! I use coconut oil on my face every night and have seen a BIG difference in a variety of ways! Mix some of this oil with a few drops of lime and you'll notice any scar fade and very few pimples afterward! It's like magic and your skin will feel much softer as well! I've learned my lesson to stick to natural remedies. Make sure the coconut oil is 100% and extra virgin and look for it in any health store! 

3. Tea tree oil

Tea tree oil is one of leading solutions when it comes to controlling acne! I purchased a little container with 15% tea tree oil from the body shop and was instructed to use it as a spot treatment. I used it the first night and literally noticed my scars appear lighter within a day! I put some on every night over the coconut oil with a q-tip. 

4. Don't stress, stay hydrated and sleep well. 

Water not only cleanses your insides but your skin as well! I make sure to drink at least eight glasses a day and have seen a significant difference, the same goes when it comes to getting at least eight hours of sleep every night. Eight is truly a lucky number,I guess! Sleep helps recharge and repair our batteries aka our skin. Also, don't stress and enjoy life! Good luck! 

WHY nice guys finish last

The alarm goes off, causing Bernie to shake right out of his sleep. He tosses and turns and finally manages to drag himself out of bed. He stretches his arms and determines whether to attend class or not when suddenly, the lovely Anna Lisa crosses his mind; her sweet laugh and her colgate smile. He picks out his nicest blouse along with a pair of trousers and rushes off to class. He looks around and his heart drops at the sight of Anna lisa with her lips locked with bad boy Jimmy Nicholai. Bernie isn't able to wrap his head around this fact because Jimmy has been nothing but a jerk to Anna lisa. He shrugs his shoulders and thinks "well I guess nice guys finish last." We've all heard of this terminology before and often times men are left feeling shattered and wondering why things are the way they are. Why do girls chase guys who seem to carry nothing but knives that hurt them and avoid guys who pamper them? Well, there are plenty of reasons!

1. THE TERM "WORK HARD FOR IT IN ORDER TO UNDERSTAND ITS WORTH" COMES A LONG WAY 

Think about it, as with everything in life, if something is easily handed to you than you'll never understand its worth or value. What i'm trying to say is that some "nice guys" just easily hand themselves to a girl and make her feel like she's some kind of royalty when she's really not. A lot of girls are immature when it comes to dating and use men who they "already have" when it's most convenient for them just because these men make it that easy and are willing to do whatever to win their heart. Girls too, are easily turned off by men who come tooo easy. We want to feel special and be with a man who NOT ANY GIRL CAN JUST HAVE. It shows that she managed to win Prince Charming over and it wasn't easy. 

2. Women expect men to have a backbone 

As women, we expect our men to have a backbone of their own. One concept men do not understand is that it's okay to be nice,sweet and loving;women like it but don't like push overs, kiss asses, or someone who doesn't have a mind of their own. Do not be that man who agrees to everything your crush says, remember that everyone has their own differences and that differences bring people closer together. Let the woman you're with know you in and out and do not be afraid to disagree with her or to get your point across. A woman likes it when a man can think for himself and has a high self esteem. So go ahead and be nice but don't be fake and don't overdo it! 

3. Do NOT COME OFF AS DESPERATE 

There's a difference between being nice and being desperate so learn it! Do not be that man who's always available and has nothing else going on for him. Women are attracted to passion and ambition because this shows that the man is a hard worker and will have a bright future. Don't talk to a woman simply because you're in love with the thought of being in love. In other words, do not try to rush into a relationship and drag her in. Let the woman know you're interested but do not continuously bring it up over and over because she'll feel like she's being pressured into something and wont have time to think which is a MAJOR turn off. The same goes for compliments, they're okay every once in a while but only compliment the woman if you genuinely mean it not just because. Too many compliments will make it seem like you don't really mean them and won't make the woman feel special because she'll be expecting it already. 

4. Make her know that you really like her ONLY

Don't be that man who talks to so many women for the sake of just being in a relationship. No woman wants to be with a man who would just get with anyone! Make her feel special and give her a little chase. Basically, don't over kill it and make her feel like you just want to be with her simply to be in a relationship. 

5. Just be yourself and don't over think it

Take a deep breath and don't over think it! If a man really likes a woman he'll automatically be nice to her and things will occur naturally. Occasional surprises are nice but don't try too hard because that's when things are bound to go wrong. The bottom line is just be yourself and do what you think is right but time is essential so don't do things in a rush! 

Does he really like you?

Maria met a charming man in a bookstore who kept eyeing her and flashing his pearly whites.The man approached Maria and they exchanged numbers. This seems like a common scenario but a lot of women know that the situation usually does not remain this simple as men are just hard to read. Many women end up feeling concerned as to whether a man likes her or not. Men may be hard to read but there are plenty of ways you can tell if he is interested or if he's simply messing around and often times, he subconsciously gives signs away so pay attention! 

1. He touches you a lot 

This one is a giver, but if the man you're talking too just can't keep his hands off you then he's most likely into you! I don't mean touching in a disrespectful way or very obviously but little, subconscious touches such as a tap on the arm or sitting very close to you to point where your legs are kind of brushed against each other. It's psychologically proven that if a man is really interested in you then he'll always be sitting close to you and touch you in some way.

2. He'll find excuses to see you

How can the man sit close to you or tap your arm if he's not interested, right? If this man is REALLY interested in you then he'll definitely make time for you in his schedule. He'll try to see you before work or after work or whenever he can! Men can't stay away for too long without seeing the women they like so catch him whenever he says something like "what are you doing today?" This is another way of him asking if you're available and if it's okay for him to make further plans! 

3. The way he texts you

Texting is a very popular way of communicating! Lots of men really aren't texters like women are but he will most likely text you consistently if he's interested! If this man really likes you then he'll want to keep in touch with you and GET TO KNOW YOU MORE. He won't cut you off in the middle of a conversation and if he does, he'll reply back with something like "sorry I got caught up with work," or something along those lines. You have to keep in mind that if a man just stops completely then he isn't concerned about you or your feelings! He'll often ask about you through text and would want to keep the conversation going! Plus, if he's not a texter then he'll find another way to communicate such as calling you.

4. He's concerned about your daily activities

If a man really likes you then he'll try to keep up with your daily activities and your life only because he wants to be a part of it soon! He'll remember your job interview and call to ask how it was or ask if you need help moving into an apartment. Men do this because they want you to know they care and that they will be there in the long run.

5. He remembers little details 

If he likes you then he'll learn about your likes and dislikes and remember them! He wants to know what you're all about and what you're made of. He also wants to know if you guys have any similar interests or not. Men are forgetful so it's a big sign if he buys you your favorite flowers or remembers your favorite movie! 

6. He introduces you to his loved ones

This one is a big step and is going to take a while to reach but if a man likes you, he'll eventually introduce you to his close friends and family members.If he introduces you to his parents then he's most likely planning on keeping you around and is saying you are a staple in his life now. No man would introduce you to his family or friends if he plans on just messing around because it's simply not worth his time so lets hope he does! 

7. He compliments you

Some men are too shy when it comes to being straight forward and expressing their feelings so they'll just throw in a compliment such as "nice smile" or "I like your shirt" to show that he's interested and finds you attractive. Look for the words "beautiful," "cute," or "adorable." Words like these are tender and a sure way to tell he has the hots for you! Also, look out for pet names! The guy you like may throw in a pet name such as "pookie" out of nowhere; pet names is a way to tell he's interested and flirting.

All in all, these signs are great to keep in mind when it comes to determining whether a man likes you or not but not always as players know how to fake most signs! Follow your gut instinct and do not let a man run you over, know your worth.